SWEET NOVEMBER

I had a great November..even he is not mine anymore. Happy sangat dapat spent time dengan you, Mr. Z. I akan sentiasa ingat memori kita malam tu. Bruce Lee, My Brother, movie yang menarik dan yang penting sekali I dapat rasa kucupan kat dahi I bila you hantar I balik rumah. Thanks alot Mr. Z...I wonder, sampai bila I akan rasa macam ni? Satu hari nanti you akan tinggalkan I jugak..macam mana I nak lalui hari-hari tu?

28/11/2010....I MISS U

DARLING I WISH U WERE HERE

Everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you, baby

Why is this feeling come again? Gosh I can't take it anymore.. How are you back there? Hope you are doing great. Sorry if I interrupting you with this new post. You told me that you wont read this blog but I know one day you will. I miss you as usual and I really hope that you are okay with your life. For me, I will keep our love wherever I go no matter what.. Take care Mr.Z. Love you always.XOXO....

Missing You Badly...

I must admit that I have to let him go. It just sometimes I wonder how am I suppose to live without him. Mr. Z you ingat tak dulu I selalu cakap I can't live without you? I tak pernah tipu..I memang tak boleh hidup tanpa you. I'm at Nenek's balcony right now. Ingat tak kita selalu lepak kat sini malam-malam. Nenek misses you too, you know..I'm hugging your shirt now.. Terasa macam you ada kat sebelah I sekarang. You mesti baru balik kerja and penat sangat. Get your enough rest okay. Terlalu banyak kenangan kita bersama kat mana pun I berada. I baru je buat your fav drink, Dragon fruit Yogurt. I guess I have to accept this. I sendiri yang rosakkan relationship kita. Ada dengar lagu baru Faizal Tahir? I baru terdengar tadi.. The lyrics remind me of you..it goes like:
Maafkanlah ku tak bisa hidup tanpa kamu
Fahamilah ku tak mampu terus tanpa kamu
Bagaimana ku nanti
Bila tiada mengganti
Yang ku ada hanya kamu saja Saat mata terpejam
Hanya kau ku terbayang
Menghapus semua segala rasa di jiwaku
Saat mata terbuka
Kamulah yang pertama
Tak mampu aku
Bayangkan
Hidup tanpa dirimu...

Gosh I miss you so much.. It hurts much more when the part of the lyrics goes:
Dan memang selalu
Aku bersalah
Selalu saja mengabaikan mu
Meninggalkan mu
Dan tetapi itulah aku sedari
Segala perit yang kau lalui
Kerna diriku yang terus hanyut

DON'T LEAVE ME~

BACK ON TRACK~

You'll always be a part of me,
I'm a part of you indefinitely,
Boy, don't you know you can't escape me?
Ooh, darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby,
And we'll linger on,
Time can't erase a feeling this strong,
No way, you're never gonna shake me,
Ooh, darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby..

It's been awhile since i posted my last post. Too busy with works and this miserable fever..not forgetting the lung and throat problem! Guess what?? He did contacted me yesterday...YEAHOOO~ Do you know how much it means to me Mr. Z? Thank you so much..5 days without your voice is suffering.. For all the thing I've done to you, you are still care about me. May Allah repay your kindness. Well, can't type much longer. My head is spinning. I need to lay down for awhile. Take care Mr. Z..

ALWAYS BE MY HUBBY~

Just Another Day..

Today is the longest day ever...no call from him and he did not answer my call. I guess he really moving on right now..Its okay I don't want to be a burden anymore. But my life is quite empty without his voice..Currently listening to 'Your Call' by Secondhand Serenade and sigh, I'm waiting for his call and yessssss, I am DESPERATE! What should I do Mr. Z? Have I ever crossed your mind? Just wanna say I miss you..Hope you are doing great back there. Do take care..XOXO

STILL WAITING~

SPANISH GUITAR~

Jiran rumah atas ni main gitar sambil menyanyi lagi...hurm, lagu 'Unchained Melody' by Elvis. Lagu ni Mr. Z pernah nyanyikn utk aku. Gosh I miss his sweet voice and his guitar plucking..Kalau la dapat aku putar balik masa, aku akan suruh dia nyanyi tanpa henti. Tak ada lagi tawa halus bila aku cium bahunya tatkala dia memainkan gitarnya. Aku cuba tahan diri dari menelefon atau mesej dia hari ni..Dia mintak jangan kacau dia lagi. Tapi jam 5.20pm tadi dia mesej aku..Did he miss me like I miss him? Hanya dia yang tahu jawapannya. Banyaknya assignment. Biasanya sebelum buat assignment aku akan call dia dulu utk dapatkan mood belajar. Sumber inspirasi la katakan...Tapi suma dah berlalu. Aku kena terima kerna segalanya berpunca dari kesalahan aku sndiri. I GUESS I NEED YOU~

No Hope?

Dah tak de harapan lagi ke..maafkan I yea call n ganggu you tadi. I just miss you so much. I tau I dah tak layak terima cinta you and you deserves a better girl. Cuma kadang kala I termangu, memikirkan kenapa I buat you mcm nie..I sayang you sangat2 tapi sanggup sakitkan you semata-mata nak perhatian dari you. Menangis air mata darah sekalipun tak dapat nak kembalikan you. I doakan you akan jalani hidup seterusnya dengan tenang dan bahagia..2 tahun yang lalu tu you lupakan je la. Tapi izinkan I simpan memori kita bersama k. Tapi kalau Allah kata jodoh kita ada, tolongla jangan menolak..I hanya manusia biasa. Kadang i kuat seteguh karang..kadang i lemah liar melara..Cinta yang kuat juga akan terkeliru jika terumbang ambing..STILL LOVING YOU~