Will Fate Reunite Us Together??

Ingat tak favourite movie kita? All The Twilight Saga..I hope next Twilight kita tengok sama2 lagi. I just watched the Twilight Dvd that you gave me for hundreds times. I still remember you told me that I am your favourite drugs. Maybe that was then. But for me, you will always be my Edward Cullen..Jacob came and try to steal Bella's heart away but the one and only in her heart is the cold blooded vampire..

YOU ARE THE ONLY EXCEPTION~

I Miss You..

Tiba-tiba rasa nak tulis dalam Bahasa Melayu. Rindunya aku pada Mr.Z. He just called me and asked how is my fever going. He still cares. Is he still love me after all that I've done? He must be an angel! Too bad I never appreciate his love. He was attending an interview this morning..Hopefully he's doing well. Good luck, Mr.Z..I know you can do it. Tadi aku rasa sakit sangat badan. Dahla demam,gatal2 pulak tu. Takut denggi je nie..Tapi lepas dgr suara dia, aku rasa bertenaga! Walaupun dia tak akan terima aku semula. Aku akan tetap mencintai dia dari jauh. Bila orang nampak dia dan bertanya,"Who's that guy?" Aku akan tersenyum sambil menjawab,"That is Z**m Z****r, the guy of my heart." Mungkin juga one day aku akan ada teman hidup, tapi tak mungkin dapat menggantikan dia. Kerana dia adalah yang terbaik..

Good Morning

I woke up this morning wishing for a miracle. However I tab my left side shoulder and told myself that,"You crushed his heart and there is no way you can get him back." My heart and my mind did not accept what I told them to do..How could I fall for a guy for only three days? Just because that guy is his best friend?!! I never know him before this but I went head over heels with his words!! Mr.Z, I don't deserve your love at all. Go and get yourself a better girl. All I can do is pray for your happiness.

 WE WAS MAGIC..BUT I'VE RUINED IT ALL

Thanks For Still Answering My Call

I never thought that you will answer my call after what I did to you. I always know how deep is your love but the problem is me. On the phone you still care and concern about me.. I'm just a fool. Do you remember when we are in love? You used to call me and sing to me while playing the guitar. Your voice was amazing. I know you hate me so much but this is not a sweet talk. I just call to say I love you and I miss you. It doesn't really matter now if you listen to the 2 words anyway..It driving me crazy thinking that I will never be your princess anymore. I did dedicated a song to you 'Sampai Syurga' by Faizal Tahir. Everything that written in the lyrics are for you and I really mean it! Maybe I will fine another love but it is not the same and you will never be replaced.

 Ku membenarkan jiwaku

Untuk mencintaimu
Ku persembahkan hidupku
Untuk bersama kamu

Dan diriku untuk kamu
Belum pernah kumerasai begitu

Semua itu telah berlalu
Harapanku palsu
Dan mungkin hari yang satu
Terus ku tertunggu

Di hatiku masih kamu
Belum pernah ku ingin terus memburu

Aku lemah tanpa kamu
Ku inginmu dampingi ku
Aku fahami aku bukan terbaik
Untuk dirimu

Namun aku tetap aku
Yang terbaik untuk diriku
Hanya satu
Hanya kamu

Ku membiarkan hatiku
Untuk merinduimu
Ku menghamparkan sakitku
Untuk tatapan kamu

Bersamamu harapanku
Hilang dalam terang yang membutakanku

Aku lemah tanpa kamu
Ku inginmu dampingi ku
Aku fahami aku bukan terbaik
Untuk dirimu

Sampai syurga ku menunggu
Sampai syurga ku cintamu
Hanya kamu

Dan segala yang ku ada
Ku berikan semua
Untuk dirimu saja

Ku mahu dirimu
Bahagia untuk selamanya
Biar sampai syurga
Aku menunggu cinta darimu
Agar ku sempurna

Aku fahami aku bukan terbaik
Untuk dirimu
Namun aku tetap aku
Yang terbaik tuk diriku

Hanya satu

Aku lemah tanpa kamu
Ku inginmu dampingi ku
Aku fahami aku bukan terbaik
Untuk dirimu

Sampai syurga ku menunggu
Sampai syurga ku cintamu
Hanya kamu

I Screwed Up..as usual

I lost another opportunity today. I was hoping he could be mine again but too bad.. I screwed up again. I love him more than I love myself but why am I doing this to him? Forgive me Mr.Z, I will never be your princess. I've ruined our perfect, amazing relationship. I still can feel your warm breath on my skin, I still can smell the sense of your perfume, your sweet gentle touch and your lovely voice. You are the best I ever had. While I was looking at our pictures together, I heard my neighbour singing 'Tercipta Untukku' song by Ungu. Remember the date that we came together? Yes..21 of September 2008. You sang this song to me, hoping that I am the one for you. But  I guess I am just another girl who knocked your love down. I do love you but I cheated on you 3 times..I guess there is no more forgiveness or chances for me. 

Menatap indahnya senyuman diwajahmu
Membuat ku terdiam dan terpaku
Mengerti akan hadirnya cinta terindah
Saat kau peluk mesra tubuhku

Banyak kata
Yang tak mampu kuungkapkan
Kepada dirimu

Aku ingin engkau slalu
Hadir dan temani aku
Disetiap langkah
Yang meyakiniku
Kau tercipta untukku
Sepanjang hidupku

Aku ingin engkau slalu
Hadir dan temani aku
Disetiap langkah
Yang meyakiniku
Kau tercipta untukku
Meski waktu akan mampu
Memanggil seluruh ragaku
Ku ingin kau tau
Kuslalu milikmu
Yang mencintaimu
Sepanjang hidupku