I Screwed Up..as usual

I lost another opportunity today. I was hoping he could be mine again but too bad.. I screwed up again. I love him more than I love myself but why am I doing this to him? Forgive me Mr.Z, I will never be your princess. I've ruined our perfect, amazing relationship. I still can feel your warm breath on my skin, I still can smell the sense of your perfume, your sweet gentle touch and your lovely voice. You are the best I ever had. While I was looking at our pictures together, I heard my neighbour singing 'Tercipta Untukku' song by Ungu. Remember the date that we came together? Yes..21 of September 2008. You sang this song to me, hoping that I am the one for you. But  I guess I am just another girl who knocked your love down. I do love you but I cheated on you 3 times..I guess there is no more forgiveness or chances for me. 

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